Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Feb 21


So today i got my ass in gear. I got up earlier than usual, did some research for my Sky interview and started looking and my next piece of coursework (very early i might add). T* came back from home today, it was quiet with just E* and I here, although a nice change.

Went up to babysit with Aussie in the evening, in a REALLY nice house. had some really good chicken soup and a crepe, as it was shrove tuesday. (I know im jewish but any excuse fopr pancakes if fine by me). I discussed with Aussie this wierd english thing- they put lemon and sugar on thier pancakes!she thought it was weird too. I mean, Maybe sugar, but why put 2 completely contrasting ingrediants (that kinda contradict each other) on what seem to be very thin, measily 'oancakes'?Pancakes to me and big and fluffy and have butter and maple syrup on them, and if your lucky some streaky bacon.oh my gosh im actually drooling now. So anyway im upset with the standard of english pancakes and therefore have decided that to counteract all the odd pancakes that were eaten today, i will go buy streaky bacon and syrup and make some really FAT fluffy pancakes and eat them untill I can no longer move.
That outta do it.
After babysitting we picked up T* and wentto Po Na Na's, it was soooooooooooooo hot and swettyon the dance floor; and not in the cool dishevled sexy sweaty kind of way, it was more like the 'i cant breath' kind of way. We took refuge at the bar where they seem to have discovered air conditioning. You can see how hot it is by the moisture and haze in the photo, also by the sweat dripping down our faces.

Feb 19


This is how i felt today. wilted. money worries-i have none.Unpaid and so much to do.had to borrow some and i HATE doing it, i want to be able to do it on my own.

Spoke to D*about brighton, just speaking to her made me feel better and got me excited about going to the big B this weekend.

I REALLY want to get jew of the week at this friday night meal, i think cake baking maybe in order.
anyway, decided to sort myslef out as of tomorrow, start coursework, start research and generally get on with things.
Onwards and upwards, no one ever said conquring the world was going to be easy!
these were on Overheard in New york toay, wanted to sav them for the end of the year
Hasidic guy holding flower: Hey!
Greek guy: ... Hi.
Hasidic guy holding flower: You Jewish?
Greek guy: No...
Hasidic guy walks away.
Greek guy to friend: Why does everyone think I'm Jewish?!

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Wigger #1: Yo, son, you're not comin' through this weekend and shit. Where you at?
Wigger #2: Yo, it's like Yom Kippur and shit

Jan 18


Today i was planning on doing lots of cuba research and generally relaxing as you do on a sunday. nevermind eh?

The new cocktail menu was in at work, and today was the offical test, to see if we could remember them all. I learnt 15 of them (theres about 40) and went in to do what i could and drink up the 100pound bar tab that was at our disposal afterwards. It was goooood Has some Sailor Jerry rum, my new and only favourite rum.its all cinnamon-y and vanilla-y.I had a chocolati, a sambucca, a bloody mary, and then im not too sure what i had. Newbie Rowan was there, he poured sambucca into his mouth and then lit it. I was sober enough at that point o realise if I tried, id probly just set my cheek on fire, so i left him to it. We met aussie and went down to Mbargos where the guys who play on thursdays at work play on Sunday, They were really good and dancing around without a care was loverly.

I rediscovered tonight the wonderful drunk feeling you get when you mix your drinks. Its not the same as regular drunk, it different and all giddy and fun!

Sunday, February 18, 2007

Feb 17


i went to sainsbury's with wet hair, it was cold and i got that funny chilled feeling because my hair was wet but i liked it.i put my hood up.

When i stepped out the house i was taken aback by the fact that it was so quiet and still outside. and grey. I stood outsidethe house and admired it for a moment. it was kind of eerie actually.

i went to get cereal but ended up coming home and drinking the milk.guess i was just thirsty.

I thought about how because i looked like crap i would probably bump into someone, as thats always the way.I did. I saw sam, carly's friend AND a guy i used to work with who kinda disappeared from HJB. It was kinda awkward.

My room is a mess today,i did a wash yesterday and didnt put anything away, so theres clean clothes collecting dust around the room.folded on the bed, on the floor, everywhere. that usually botheres me and makes my mind feel cluttered but today i like it.

my room is that perfect temperature today, wearing a hoodie and thin socks keeps me warm without being too hot. truely cosy.

Im not hungry today, just quite thirsty.my toes are cold all day.

I lay on my bed and flick through a really thick telegraph, without actually reading anything but the headlines and the first few lines of each article. I look at the pictures in the travel section, and read all te quotes in big writing in the magazine that comes with it on the weekend.

Im in one of those alone moods today, i could probably go all day without muttering a word to anyone, and not feel bored or lonely. its a quiet day, and im happy to be alone with my thoughts.


ill have to 'get into the mood' later for work though.

theres plenty of things for me to do today, but nothing that HAS to be done, so i dont do any cleaning or Brit awards again, and then swap to recolation, relocation. Its quiet without Mr.M reffering to how nice pretty much every house thats in the country is and how he wants a house 'like that'. They're all different, what he really wants is the life that comes with it.I want it too, but im not ready to move to a quiet life, i dont think i will be for a while;i like big cities, cosmopolitan living and there always being something to do.

i have to get ready now.. and start talking soon :-(
i cant believe its alomost end of feb already

Feb 16


Today i did nothing, AGAIN!! I felt i deserved a 'duvet day'

Went to work and got my Big Steph t-shirt!! name courtesy of Rob. Its a little big and itchy but thats nothing a bit of fabric softener and the tumble dryer wont fix!
I spoke to D* on the phone, and got REALLY excited about going to Brighton next weekend!!Nee will defo be there, and Mert might come too!!The jewish dinner is all set, turns out im gunna have to try xtra hard to get Jew of the week, kippas at the ready. We decided that were going to make Nee have sex with a Jew! I cant wait, Im going to start packing now...

Feb 15


Not much today, did nothing really.

Although i did find out that i got 82 on my Marketing Research exam from January!!wooo hoo!!Thats well over a 1st (70 is the boundry for a 1st), so im well on my way in that module.i was so shocked, i really didnt have any idea ow well the exam went, woooo hooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

good day!

I went with the rose theme again today, this is Mr.M's first ever sketch!Hes really not the arty type at all, but i have a feeling he would like to be a little bit at least. I like him the way he is. So he drew this ove rthe summer, using one of those wooden coloured roses as reference, while i did an indian painting on canvas. He thought it was crap but i think its great, especially for a first attempt. So its on my pinboard now, and if we ever move in together it will go on the fridge, maybe well write 'Mr.M's first drawing, age 20' on it.

I like it.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Feb 9


Oops forgot the 9th.

Feb 14

Ok so today is day of St.Valentine. Being a future marketeer, i try not to fall for marketing. This day is one big cash in. We all know why.

I dont think that anyone, men AND women, should have to have a day set aside; remember this is ONE day in the 365 EACH YEAR, a day in which they HAVE TO buy flowers, and choclates and jewllery and all that stuff. SURELY, it is nicer to be surprised with a small gift, or dinner or whatever, on the, i dont know lets say, the 31st of May, when you know that they have done it because of theyre OWN THOUGHTS of love and theyre OWN initiative. Being told to to all this stuff is resented by men everywhere, and sure some women, although generally, we seem to fuel this insanity with guilt tripping men into the whole 'this one day a year and i dont even get a card or chocolates' thing.

I however do not care about this 'holiday'. I want flowers 'just because' on May 31st,because he thought of me.

I now I sound like a feminist, been single for forever women, but i am not, i have a wonderful boyfriend of 3years, i'm just realistic!

Having said all this, it sure is nice to get something, wether he thinks he has to or not. But may i just defend him by saying that I was given flowers just 2 months ago, just because.
And its always nice when people tell you they love you.

Happy February 14th. And May 31st for the future.

Thank you xox

Feb 13


I kept telling him today would be good. Its just the way the universe works.

Finally the man with the blue Breitling watch was open. and he still had the blue watch!

Went to Mini at cribs. i thought of that old song- Sitting, and waiting, and wishing, and hoping. They fixed the car for real cheap. 80 instead of 500.

Went shopping and he bought Armani.
(I think he has a problem like mine...i have a abuse problem. Abuse of my debit card in shoe stores. His is abuse of his credit card in watch stores. 3 in 2 months. Now thats an addiction if i ever saw one)

He even bought a box to put them all in.

I told him today would be a good day.
Something came on Tv that prompted me to ponder over why i constantly want to learn stuff. Its not that im nosy. I just always want to know more. I read non-ficton books and want to learn languages and know about all these different things that im interested in. I have a small thirst for knowledge. Not huge one, im just a bit parched. I ponder over wether this is because i was never pushed into doing a sport or an instument when i was young. I dont mind, I just thought that ive never been really demanded upon to get good grades or learn something inparticular, so i never grew up and got fed up of it and quit as many of my friends did. Now however, i want to be able to play everything, make everything, speak in everything, know, well not eveything but alot. Maybe its because MR.M knows so much and i want to too. or maybe i want to know more than him subconsciencely. or maybe not. whatever. ive had 3 lectures today and now my head is a bit fuzzy.

Today i had one of those little moments where i remember how much i love you. We both got so excited that the lemonade popsicles had jokes on the sticks.
Today was a good day.

Feb 12


Monday.Went went to see the nice man with the watches but he was closed.

Then the car made a funny noise. 2 hours later it was still making a funny noise. 1 hour later it owuldnt turn on. crap. RAC will be 45min to 2 hours crap. at least we could wait inside.

I wanted the man to come down the road signing the song from the advert in his van. "You just call out my name, and you know wherever i aaaammmmm..." but APPARENTLY thats the AA not the RAC.whatever. it would still have been cool.

So then we had to sit in the car for an hour while the battery charged itself. Hench the hats. and the cold, carboard chicken goujons. I brought out a blanket and a paper. I didnt mind, i was still with him.

Feb 11


11th today. Mr.M came back to Bristol with me to see if the nice man with the 2 watches still had the blue watch. He was closed.

We dined at HJB with our hats on, and generally enjoyed each others hungover company.

Feb 10

Happy Birthday to you,
Happy Birthday to you,
You look like a monkey,
And you smell like one too!

Big 2-1. Train platform. Cold. Fresh. Apparently i should Mind the Gap. Remembered that when i as young i used to have this dream where i fell down onto the tracks in the subway or train station and although i was tall enough, when i tried to pull myslef up (like on the side of the swimming pool), my body was too heavy. I dont think a train ever came, or it it did it never came close, but i had the same dream quite a few times. Well enough times to still remember.

My train came from Leeds. The magazine i bought had a feature on Leeds. A sign or what?!Maybe just more receptive. Tomorrow is the 11th.

Will he have suddenly outgrown me?

Today i also realised the pleasure of unwrapping sweets. The kind you can pull on both ends and it twirls and then you unwrap it. And sticks of gum. And crunching it down in your hand into a little ball while you put it in your mouth with your other hand. Ones of those little things I love.

Happy Birthday Mr.M, Many Happy Returns oxoxo

p.s. this is possibly the worst photo of you ever, but it is nesessary, as you did look this drunk as of about 7pm.

Friday, February 9, 2007

Feb 8


Today i got a big chunk of the next coursework done, its due monday and i cant do it over the weekend as ill be in Exeter for Mr.M's big 2-1 birth. I also made a special gift box for his gift, ill post the photo at a later date as i dont want him to see it!Went for dinner with SB, indian down the road.it was so nice to chat and the food was tres yummy. tres yummy indeed!

Feb 7


The beginning of today. Really foggy and misty, and you cant really tell if its going to be nice or not.

Today was in fact, the beginning of the end.

The end of all this crap i keep gettng thrown at me.

Even though i woke up and 6.30 having had 3 hours sleep, i still had a good day. I went to PC world and got a new lead for my computer costing me 55pounds instead of 70. hoo-ray for studnet discount and people who open stuff in stores so that i can have a 'already-opened' discount too.

On the way back to the bus stop, the bus left the stop before i could get to it. i waved to the driver to ask where the next stop was so i could run there, run he waved me across the dual carrige way and held up a line of traffic behind him at the roundabout so that i could run across the road and get on. Most bus driver in Bristol are soooo mean, but the lovely one i had today was clearly some sort of sign!

So i get home and Carol from aberford interiors rings me to offer me the job!!WOO HOO!!NO MORE APPICATIONS!!I HAVE A PLACEMENT!!so its in Leeds, really north and cold but it looks cool, and apparently its a really good uni town so there will be plently of otehr studnets around. I know absolultey no one up there, but i figure ill join some classes or try n get into the student union up there and join a few societies, maybe take up a night or two at bar just for the social factor. So im going up on the first of march to have alook around and meet everyone tc, shoudl be a fun day. AND ILL HAVE MY OWN FLAT!!JUST MINE!!scarry but inevitable at some point, might as well be now eh?

Told you it was the beginning of the end..

Feb 6


Today was the day of the interview for Aberford Interiors. Not too nervous as it was going to be quite informal.


The interview wasat this little cafe come bar come restaurant type place down at the waterfront. I went down to that part of town a bit early so i ould pick up chris' birthday presnt from that dumb lady. funnily enough all went smoothly!i was expecting something bad, i was actually a little fed up before i got there, in anticipation of course.


So i had load sof time to kill so i walked slowly along the waterfront towards the cafe. It was cold but sunny. nice winter were having actually. So i came across this little memorial thing, ive been pastit before but never realised it was a memorial for rememberence. So there were all these little wooden crosses with paper poppies stuck on them strewn across it, it looked like there had been loads but most had blown away. I picked one up and it had a little laminated piece of paper stuck to the back with the name of someone on it and how they died. all the letters were faded and and a little smudged where water had gotten in. There had probably been loads of people there on rememberence sunday, and then it was just left, no one cleared up or cared afterwards.


Then i came along some swans, and this indian man and his little boy came to feed them, and the little boy was really scared of them and wouldnt go near the edge, he stood like 2 feet back and just threw his crisps in. i wondered if the ducks could taste the flavouring on the crisps. the dad kept pulling his boy towards the edge to be with him, and eventually picked him up and put him next to him, but of course he moved straight back to 2 feet away. the dad left it then, just let him feed them. in all fairness,the swans were quite big especially in comparison to the little boy. It was a really sweet little scene, and after taking a photos of the swans eating i took one of the dad and his boy, his dad didnt care about the ducks, he was enjoying being with his son and experiencing the moment. As i walked past them on my way towards the interview, we smiled at each other and the indian man said goodbye. i wish id asked him for his email or his address so i could send him the photo, that would have been nice.


so i kept going and the interview was further than i thought, so i kept walking along the river side and found came across this little yard where there were a few really old boats, they looked like little cartoon tug boats. I didnt have much time or battery, but they were so colourful i had to take a photo, i didnt have time to find a great angle so this had to do, i still like it though.


I went to the interview and it went really well, i really liked the two people that interviewed me and it was nice to find out more about the business.

I walked back to the bus stop feeling pretty good, talking to chris and discussing going to fiji, cuba, and hawaii, i was basically just shouting out places i wanted to go this year, none of which we will actually go to, well probably end up somewhere like centre parks. but hey a girl can dream.

Feb 5


Today my photo is called whizz kids. I got my weekly photojojo email, that suggested puttin your shutter speed really slow and throwing your camera. I decided to give it a go and threw it towards this poster above my bed, the bed also gave it something soft to land on, not too dumb me. so this what came out, i think its pretty cool, and like i said, im a primary colours kinda girl!


This was on overheard in new york today, i thought it was good:

Frat boy #1: Dude, when do you graduate?
Frat boy #2: Like, next year, man.
Frat boy #1: How long have you been in school, man? Like, five years, right?
Frat boy #2: Anyone that leaves college in less than five years is a loser. It's like someone who leaves the party at 10:30 -- things are just getting started!

Feb 4


Today i did coursework all day and got a headache. not from doing coursework and thinking too much (as if!) but from looking at the screen that doesnt flicker qucikly enough the my housemate kindly set up for me, so that i could finish my work. It was a bit of an odd set up, his old laptop with no screen, plugged into an old monitor. either way i was greatful to be able to do my work!i had to turn the screen to 'high sensitivity' or something of that nature so it was easier to see, which worked but the black and white made it boring to look at. but then again ive never known doing coursework to be fun so nothingnew there.

Feb 3rd


Today i ventured out into the world for the first time in like 3 days. and what a lovely day i picked!

(I like the beginning of this month, because i can offically start putting pictures into my february file on my laptop) (i got through a whole month!)

Feb 1 & 2

Ok so NO i have not forgotten to take a photo for these two days, i just acidentally deleted them. Feb 2nd i called in sick for work, i wasnt quite ready for it yet after my illness, and the photo was of my finally lowered temperature on the thermometer. I cant even remember what the feb 1st photo was, but i spent all day in bed so i can assure you it wasnt worth fretting over. so no photo for thsi post!

Jan 31


Finally the end of this month, possibly the most anti-climatic month of the year is over. And guess what?! another anti climax!! haha. Still in bed today. I decided that this time i was isck, i was actually going to not do anything and just sleep as mucha s possible (poor me eh?), to see how long it took to get rid of it. Two days of full on sleep apparently. Spent today sleeping mostly and hanging out with my good friend eyore. Chris gave me him 2 years ago this valentines day, and although im not really a cuddly toy kinda gal, hes so soft and cuddly ive got strangley attached to him. Plus ive had him so long now hes got that lovely comforting smell that cuddly toys always seem to have, or get i suppose after not being washed for too long. Chris suggested putting him the washing machine and i must admit i coward at the thought of him getting soap in his eyes and getting all cold and wet and soggy.although im sure the dryer would be fun, all warm and fuzzy...

Jan 30


I spent the day in bed today, all day. Im so glad ive already done a big chunk of coursework, my fever is 100 and i dont have a laptop to do any work on. AH well!what an excuse!i ACTUALLY CANT do any work! Sex and the city all day it is then! Thats what i love about being ill, you can do absolutley nothing and not feel guilty...
So watching sex and the city i saw the one where Carries Mac crashes, and she goes into the repair place and tells the fix it guy about how 'a mean little man with x's where his eyes should be popped up', and the fix it guy says thats called a 'saaad mac'. So i dont have a mac but i felt this best described what was worring me all day, my own little sad mac.

29 Jan


ok so here comes a load of back dated posts. I took this photo in the car park at university, at 8.30am-muchmuch too early for my likeing. Made worse by the fact that i was feeling ill and i laptop had died and i had no idea how to fix it.SO the car park wad drab and never ending, much like it seemed the day was going to be